the things that happen to good guys

another crazy day in the life of our unsuspecting character, Kiwi Vergara..

theres's nothing else much harsher in this world than getting your heart broken again by the same person. I guess people like me can't help it. She comes to you saying things that I don't really know if they still mean anything to them. I feel like an emotional door mat and I can't do anything about it. I try not to, but its just to hard to let go of someone you loved. Maybe one day when I grow wiser, I'd be free of this misery. But for now theres nothing else to do but to wallow and live through this suffering. I'm crying inside. The pleasure of tears and letting it out is out of my reach. I just wish that when she says "I love you" she has the courage to back it up. Words are hollow without any action. There are a lot of questions in my mind like a "why?" or a "how?". Nothing much to mdo about it. Hayyy, the irony of life. All my life I've tried to be good. I've respected women, been active at church, God fearing, been a good friend...I don't know why this happens to me. Its just my luck or maybe I'm starting to think that I had clearly chosen the wrong person to love. I'm not really sure if shes the one. I'm confused right now and I don't know what to do. Its a bittersweet feeling, the melanchoy of love and distrust. You hate the person at the same time love them also. I'm thinking that these stuff only happens in the movies but guess I was wrong. hahaha. God, I think I'm going crazy. Even trying to laugh at the situation when clearly its everything opposite. God, help me.